Thoughts on Us…

I love you so much but I don’t know where this relationship is going or how invested you are in this anymore. Do I feel loved? No. Do I feel like I’m being loved the way I should be? No. Every day I see how we were slipping through my fingers. I don’t know what to do. I’m starting to think we won’t last a year, let alone two years. Honestly, I don’t even know where we will be down the road. I can’t imagine us with a life together. I can’t even imagine how we will be in the future. Perhaps mother always knows best. =/

To be honest, sometimes I feel like just another fuck buddy.

Best Thing I’ve Read Today

“You have an amazing natural beauty, a genetic trait that has been passed down to you through your family, a trait that is a part of your own special family, culture, heritage, or nationality. This is not a superficial question, because millions of girls, like yourself, cross-cultural, cross-nations, become unhappy each day, due to some part of their physical appearance that they want to change. And all I can say is, hold onto yourself. Nobody else is like you. Don’t let the beauty industry bring you down.”

From: http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20080813230036AAYDxO6

Ode to Gaia

Ode to Gaia

Divine is she who tends the garden
of our Earthy mother, whose bosom
lends a supple perch for darkened
fruits, ripe enough to seed blossoms
upon the nourished soil her toes pace.

Upon her bountiful breast rest
a bushel of golden wheat, carried
with the utmost care, like a babe prest
upon his mother’s heart to be cherished
until the time he’s age enough to grow

alone. Gaia, their young mouths press
to the soggy soil your hands till
and care for. Here, they are refreshed
in your shadow– their roots sit still
for you, who intimately lives with rain.

Factor X

I’m not the type of girl who can be the girlfriend with a “convenience factor.” I’m not a gas station minimart open 24/7 where you can get something you want whenever you want. I will not wait for your forever even though I love you. I will wait for you, until you start preventing me from living my own life. I am not the girl who you can hang out with when you’ve decided you’re done hanging with your friends at 5AM in the morning.

I’m a commitment. I’ll be committed to you and promise to make you the first person I care about if you’ll do the same for me. I’m not a fling. I will not be that “1 month girlfriend” or that “3 month girlfriend” or even that “5 month girlfriend.” If you’re looking for that, go pay a long-term prostitute.

I will do things for you, buy things for you, cook for you, hug you, kiss you, love you, and make you feel wanted. But, only if you’ll do the same for me. If you start ignoring me, I’ll start ignoring you. If you start to take me for granted, I’ll start taking you for granted. It’s monkey see, monkey do and it has nothing to do with how I am, it is how nature works. Psychology proves this is how little kids learn.

I’m not the girl who will sit there by the phone and wait for you to call me whenever you feel like you’re done doing whatever you’re done with. I won’t be that kind of girlfriend and I’ll certainly not be that kind of wife. So make a choice. I’m not going to be number two so you if want me, you better damn make sure that I’m number one. That’s what I deserve since it’s what I’m willing to give in return. You better start thinking as “us” instead of being selfish and thinking of “I.”

Interesting facts about the skin: Oily?

Apparently, oily skin isn’t always bad skin! Woah! I didn’t know that. The oils on your face actually make you appear younger and they help fight early wrinkles.  Hm… whatcha know?

Dr. Jeffrey Benabio: ”No. Oily skin is healthy skin.

Your skin’s main function is to protect you. Skin goes to great expense to produce natural oils to keep moisture in and irritants out. Soaps and shampoos can strip good oil off, making skin dry, irritated and unhealthy. To prevent this, especially during dry, winter months:

* Choose skin cleansers instead of soaps.
* Apply a moisturizer everyday after showering.
* Eat foods high in healthy oils such as walnuts and salmon to provide the raw materials for your skin to make its own oils.

If your skin is too oily on your face or back, then use acne treatments such as salicylic acid or benzoyl peroxide to help reduce the oil. Remember, overusing acne treatments or scrubs leads to irritation which can cause your skin to produce even more oil to try to protect itself.

And when you’re feeling frustrated with your shiny face, just know that people with oily skin always look younger and develop fewer wrinkles as they age. “

 Also from sharecare: Did you know: Most moisturizers contain 65-85% water in a lotion form. The water acts as a temporary hydrating agent and allows absorption of some components and evaporation of the moisturizer.